（ a year ago, two, maybe he would have joked with her. but time and actions splintered them, and everything feels so tenuous. walking on broken glass ain't the goddamn half of it. we were going to fix this. the cold night on the porch, the bite of good, black coffee in his hands, the way the steam curled, the way hope rose up in him again.
suddenly, he's grateful for the fact this ain't but text. he doesn't think he could speak. already he's havin' to scrub a hand hard across his face. ）
You know, I ain't seen a single lick of cheese?
（ jesus, that was bad. he actually grimaces on his own account. wondering if it's too irreverent. wondering if it's not irreverent enough. wondering if it's all right, if being cavalier will just hurt her worse.
given what he's learned, there's not even a guarantee that she's —
that she knows. she could be fifteen years old again, before everything went to hell. just a little girl he was tryin' so desperately to save.
would that make it easier? if she were? or would it just be harder knowin' they'd be headed down the same path? ）
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Date: 2020-12-17 08:25 pm (UTC)（ a year ago, two, maybe he would have joked with her. but time and actions splintered them, and everything feels so tenuous. walking on broken glass ain't the goddamn half of it. we were going to fix this. the cold night on the porch, the bite of good, black coffee in his hands, the way the steam curled, the way hope rose up in him again.
suddenly, he's grateful for the fact this ain't but text. he doesn't think he could speak. already he's havin' to scrub a hand hard across his face. ）
You know, I ain't seen a single lick of cheese?
（ jesus, that was bad. he actually grimaces on his own account. wondering if it's too irreverent. wondering if it's not irreverent enough. wondering if it's all right, if being cavalier will just hurt her worse.
given what he's learned, there's not even a guarantee that she's —
that she knows. she could be fifteen years old again, before everything went to hell. just a little girl he was tryin' so desperately to save.
would that make it easier? if she were? or would it just be harder knowin' they'd be headed down the same path? ）